Peace, Love, Happiness.......All From Hell?

Well what can I say other than wow. I have been through hell. They're correct when they say it is a fiery inferno. It burns.. It is the most painful thing anyone could ever imagine. But is it eternal? I don't think it is. While the embers are still hot to the touch, the flames have been completely extinguished. I am so happy and content with my life right now. My wife is the most beautiful caring soul in the world. I love her so much. Every day our love grows stronger. I truly ache anytime I am away from her. I wish i could spend every waking moment with her. Her smile warms me from the inside out. I know I am a completely different person than I used to be. The threat of loss changed me for the better. I know that every day I am still changing, learning new ways to express my emotions and feelings. Learning every day how to be a better husband and father. Learning how to share happiness with her. I know our love has always been good. It has at times been stressed. It has at times been stagnant. But it has always been good. But now It is great. And every day It becomes brighter and brighter. Everyone always has a general idea of what life could be when they are old and gray. But now it is so clear to me what life Will be like. I will have my lovely wife by my side. We will be smiling. We will still be madly in love. We will still send each other goofy text messages. We will as close to perfect as anyone could be. As for the past... It is just that. The past. I no longer feel pain. I no longer feel hurt. Memories still sting a bit, but at least they are ancient memories, and not current feelings. And even those are fading. I know memories never die. But remember that one time when you were riding your bike back in 1st or second grade and you fell off? Oh yeah I remember that. But I tell you what, I haven't thought about it forever. And soon hopefully this will be the same thing. Because now, Things are amazing. She is amazing. And while I still think of it sometimes, the recollections are further and further apart. And soon it will be like...You remember that one time...OHHHHH YEAH.... I haven't thought about that in years! lol. I love you Sarah. You really do make my world turn. I count the seconds till I am home in your arms. I miss you soo much when I'm gone. Love is grand.